Monday, December 29, 2008

christmas 08..n th3 weekend there0f

damn y0..this daii sucked maj0r ass
ii didnt have my fone.or ipod.
didnt get much either...buht...its w.e.


well here's something i rote..an ...w.e u wanna call it.

ii act this waii..s0 ii w0nt sit n cry...
ii saii i dnt car3 s0 ii w0nt sit n b3 sad..
ii m3k walls s0 ii cant hurt mii
ii r3act that waii s0 ii can disapp3ar just in tim3
ii was b0rn with music in mii ears s0 ii can bl0k it 0ut
at th3 end 0f th3 daii sum1 always hat3s the things yuh d0 just f0r u..s0 u g0tta k33p r0ckin t0 th3 rhythm - kat

Thursday, December 25, 2008

damn

damn its crazy h0w mii year is b0ut t0 3nd.
lik3 reall tlk..i shudnt be feeling liek this.
yuh really wanted to kno..n ii didnt wanna lie..
told u what went d0wn..many years ag0 n..l0ok at that..damn

th3 0nlii reas0n y im feelin this typ3 0f waii..iz cuz im used t0 tlkin t0 u all the tim3...just wasting away time..

[ BL33P] ...na i cnt d0 this t0 mii self...sittin r0und here feelin sad n shyt..
0utta here.
this isnt f0r mii
if yuh dnt want mii f0r wh0 i am..regardless 0f what u d0..0r d0 n0t kn0.
that...i guess that lets mii kn0 wh0 u r.
bcz honestly..yuh ment al0t t0 m3..buht its r0ckin that waii..
i deff hated this christmas..
this "happy" seas0n..yuh kno.
cuz...nuffin ever g0es h0w ii want it.
i didnt get much ..well...i aint get nething.
umm...g0t in troubl3 christmas eve..0d!! l0l..buth it was kinda w0rth it th0. i g0t t0 see mii 2nd m0mmii..i effin luv ha y0..shes th3 best..if ii was t0 3ver run away..yuh can find mii in far r0ckaway!
thats reall tlk...ima be "parlayin" with th3 ho0dlums n shyt

ummm....yeh..this daii was mighty gay..slept till 10 sumthin...n juss chilled..was rude n did n0t care all daii

this is christmas 08

Thursday, December 11, 2008

hahah real talk!

0n sum real shyt if u n0t gr33n i dnt want it.n 0n sum real shyt.ii p0pp3d 0ut al0n3 n thats h0w ima m3k it.n 0n sum real shyt..im l3avin..g0in sumplac3 where yuh cnt find mi..s0 ni99a cum thru n 3ffin d3fin3 mi..n im Kat.s0 sm0oth i t0ld mi waz gud

Sunday, December 7, 2008

120708

mm to0k mii SAT t0daii.
it was iight..
to0k th3 train h0me..that was a l0ng ride!!

0n sum 3ff yuh all fl0w yuh f33l mii
ima be heartless like a dead man
f3el nuffin juss keep m0vin like im wlkin in sand.

3vn if yuh gd^ wh3n ur em0tii0ns ar3 fullfl3dg3d its li3k a h0b0 tryna h0p 0ver a bridg3 with stilt l3gs..its to0 hardd
o0ww

HAHAHA..sumthin lik3 a h3artl3ss= kat.....pshh..dnt u wish th3r3 were disp0sabl3 f33lings..juss w0nderin yuh kn0..that train ride did things t0 mii..buht fa real th0...0r maybe im juss that chill!!!!


sighh 0n an0ther note..psh what happend on sat..
damn.
this is whats happenin t0 the rest 0f the church..falling 0ff 0nt0 the wayside.when they were s0 cl0se..errything 0utside l0ok s0 pretty till it get bun n up n dead

ay3 ay3 ay3..kat is s0 raw...
all ii want f0r christmas t0 b3 fl0ating 0n marijuana cl0uds..s0 ii can hide in th3 sm0ke n l0ok ar0und n wrinkl3 mii br0ws...put mii f33lings in a b0ttl3 n put it t0 fr33ze n wh3n th3 b0ttl3 p0p ima b3 smiling s0 hard li3k ii was juss cur3d 0f a rar3 dis3ase. =p

Thursday, December 4, 2008

umm update!!



^^^ 0mg ii g0t a bang..new pixx.so0n cum!

ii writ3 s0 much ii 0ughta b3 a librarian
n put it all t0getha
so0 ..im plan t0 mek a track
n juss spitt th3 things that u cnt understand yuh digg mii?!

l0ok 0ut f0r mii trackk
dm0thaluvvinkath
00 y3hs ii rap!!

Saturday, November 29, 2008

turk3y daiii n the weekend..that came with it.

umm...this year thnxgiving was 0n mii grandm0th3rs birthdaii...the next dayy was mii lil br0thers bdaii.

thnxgivng this yr was alrit3..mi fam is wild funny.lmao..i tell u.the things we wlk bout at the table.

sigh...fridaii was crazy,,tryna prepare f0r sat.
fridai nite..0 y3h..spent the nit3..tlkin t0 mii bo0ki3. =] 0 Y3H!!
sat was l0ng..
chuch...came h0m3 n ii slept.[ 0f c0urse ]
th3n w0ke up..ate..n was ar0und n ab0ut.

h0n3stly..never give black ppl a mike...=O...0mg..they tlk f0rever..smh
the fo0d was iight, juice was p0ppin, patti3s.0 y3h, l0lz..

wild tir3d atm..its ..1.23 waiting f0r this fo0l t0 call mii n aim fl0win hardd.
kat is 0utta h3r3.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

attempting t0 writ3 t0 get 0ver n writ3rs bl0ck t3ks 0ver

ewwww
0 man..i have al0tta extra f33lings t0 express
i dnt wanna express it to that pers0n because...iunno y i shud.
like a year went by..n ii wanted this kid...mann...
n its b0ut t0 be '09 n ii feel as though he is brushing mii 0ff.
=[
y cant i ever get what ii want
maybe.....its 0ne 0f th0se.."0ut 0f the carcass is sumthin sweet" siuati0ns.
or maybe im so gd^..i gd^ my 0wn head..n now ima be sittin in regret.
shudda never put mii feelings out there
shudda never trusted..shudda never cared
but ii did mii shyt right..n now im left..
0ut here.

kAP0w
day before thnxgiving..
y0 4th pd lunch was s0 much fun..i had a really gud day. it deff made mii m0nth.

-Kat

Thursday, November 20, 2008

the h0neym0on stage dun past n we naht evn t0getha

we laughed n smiled
wanted t0 g0 the extra mile
it was perfection, i cudda kept u like a d0lla
the honeymoon stage passed
n we naht evn togetha.


would have held you down like that glass paper weight
would have loved you like a fat kid loves cake.
the sun would have been our cue to do it all over again
the moon would have been the serious tim3...talk till the phones went blind.

I would have been Bonnie and you would have been Clyde
and together we would have did the time.
robbed the world blind with that thing they called love and affection.

but that was juss the emotions that drive you crazy
and after late nites..the way you slept
it was so perfect cause ya dreams replayed every moment every drop.

but time passed the leaves done fell
we looking around
hoping no one could tell.
cause the honeymoon stage dun past n we naht even together yet.

just wanting now to buss sum sweat.
and the time spent tryna get up and over
could been time to mek up under warm covers

that clock on the wall runs the same
but the internal clock dont tick the same.
cuz i was put here for a purpose and now the time frame is almost done.
sum1 ansa me this question when is two g0ing t0 become one?

120208

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

class 0f 09 b3bi





h0nestly i dnt liek it.
mad luv t0 th0se hu like it..=/

111208

=[
wth y0 im sickk with the stomach virus. i shud really be in my bed, but idk y im not there. my whole system feels horrible. liek sum1 is p0king me in my tummy, pulling it n tearing it apart. but this foolishness is in ur small intestine. wth did ii eat that made me erupt like this. i was just fine this morning, and by 3rd peri0d, damn gone again. spent 4 periods in the nurses office. i think they shud be on the list of budget cuts. cuz they do NOTHING!!!!!!!! werd to errything i love they dont! just talk on the phone and read magazines.
cuz on sum reall ishhh ii cudda collapsed or sumthin. the way i was in pain i tell yuh..rasss G0d only knows. only the devil can conjure up something so serious. =[
n u kno wats worse..i think my lil bro got it. poor kid. i can deal with it better cuz ive had this ting umpteen times. but he's made outta paper, weak n fragile.

i remember monday when i was home sick, my lil dog juss chillin with mi. i love that dog man.
but anyway, sh0ut0uts th3 Prep kids, who disrupted my peaceful rest. Sh0ut0uts t0 the stupid nurses at bayside high school. you guys deserve to be cut !
sh0ut0uts t0 rivalam, sliim, kris, n garay. i tell u, i dunno what i wud do with0ut thes kids. o0h n t0 all the ppl i sit with 4th pd lunch, l0lz onlli at bayside.


it is..now....8:39pm meh g0ne meh tummy bun!

Sunday, November 9, 2008

y3hh bo0ii 070507

dey say life iz a dick.

s0 u juss g0tta fuk it

but sum thingz u dun wanna fuk

dey may be hard

but wen push cum to shove dey wanna h0p off dey sp0t

n pull sum nxt shyt wanna turn int0 a pussii

fuk watchu herd niccaszz

erry thing i g0t iz hella hard

st0l3n fr0m myspace 070107

if there was an imaginary line between me and my heart

u wouldn't have crossed it

cuz u don't trust the bridge that takes you there

but i cant blame you

cuz i don't trust it either

at times it may seem

unreliable because

it may get unsteady

or the signs on it sumtimes

don't werk

cuz da matermind of it all sumtimes

don't know whats going on....

2 b3 continu3d a$ u trust da bridg3

My Box ...st0l3n fr0m mii space bl0g

U MAY LIVE IN A HOUSE

BUT I LIVE IN A BOX WITH NO

WINDOWZ OR DOORZ

I CANT SEE OUT NOR BREATHE IN

ITZ SO TITE

IT FEELZ SO NAKED CUZ I CAN BARELY BREATHE ENUF 2 LET

GO OF ALL DA TIMEZ I WISH THIS BOX WERE A HOME

BUT ITZ NOT

I SUMTIMEZ WISH MY BOX CUD SHARE N I CUD HAVE VISITORZ BUT

I CANT BCUZ THERE ISNT ENUF ROOM 4 ME WITH DEM THAT LIVE IN BIG HOMEZ

N FEEL THAT I AM NOT READY 4 SUCH A PLACE CALLED HOME

MY HOME IZ BROKEN LIKE A VASE HIT BY A CHILD

MY LIFE IZ A FACADE

A FAN IN THE NILE GENTLY GOING LIKE A ROBOT ON AUTOMATIC

IMPOSSIBLE IT MAY SOUND BUT IT IZ JUST ENUF TRU

SO I HOPE U CAN BELIEVE ME ENUF TO LET ME INTO UR HOME SO I CAN STEP OUT OF THIS BOX I AM FORCED 2 CALL HOME N INTO A PLACE CALLED THE WORLD

122706

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

0BAMA '08

Hist0ry was made!!
the first black man as our president
to0t to0t
the streets 0f ny erupted.
obama y3s we can yes we can


i alm0st cri3d y0

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

110408

its li3k yuh duckin
n mii s0 chill im layin d0wn.
im rollin ..
tryna put h0w i f33l int0 c0mp0und sentences
s0 wh3n th3 tim3 is rit3 ii can t3k th3m apart n thr0w th3m away
..bl0odcl0t m3h nuh bizn3z with th3 3n3my=3m0ti0ns
ii stick wit a c0ldst0n3

mmm

up th3r3 is kinda cr0wd3d s0 d0 sum m3ntal sanitati0n n l0ok f0r th3 priz3
nak3d d0lli3s 0r th3 real d3light
f3ast up0n th3 r3al milli0n d0lla m3al
im t3llin yuh y0 this h0w u shud r3ally f33l
r3d3fining juicy c0utur3
no w0nda th3y saii "3at candy"
lmao
r0tt3n t33th with a n3w f0und fr3nzy..
kinda li3k that m0nk3y 0n yur backk addicti0n

0ff th3 r3c0rd..im juss A kAt n u juss mad cuz ii spit b4 u cud swall0ww
0 3ffin 0wwwwww

Sunday, October 26, 2008

th3 br33ze calms mii

l3ft sk0ol kinda early str0lling thru th3 park..
saw a group 0f kids..we g0t aquaint3d n strt3d passing r0und a blunt. as it g0t n3ar3r....things strt3d flashin by mi
ppl drink..0thers hv3 sex..0thers d0 werk till th3y vex..
buht mii....ima bl0w it 0ut mii azz cuzz i cud s3e th3 shap3s n pplz nam3s as i puff 0ut sm0k3.th3 sw33t tast3 ar0us3s mi..b3g mii f0r m0re ...
th3 b3ll rings..i str0ll baq t0 th3 sk0ol..h0p 0n th3 bus...n dr3am b0ut a fi3ld 0f w33d ..mii runnin farm3r th3y call mii.....ha..th3y t3ll mii its r0ng buht i cant h3ar yuh....im imm3rs3d in th3 sm0k3 ..th3 vanilla dutchi3 n i t3ll st0ri3s as i fall sl33p ...i b3g th3 squad..dnt wak3 mii

Saturday, October 25, 2008

a lil sum sum

th3 things that m3k u wanna sit 0n th3 c0uch n d3liberat3 0n
buht ii cnt sit 0n mii c0uch n d0 that
s0 ima r3tr3at t0 mii t0il3t s3at
n p0nder..m0r3 lik3 th3 things that m3k yuh sp3nd $10 on juss t0 r3lax
ill b3 fin3 wh3n ii escap3 0r 3nd up lik3 w33zy
" in tw0 cups im scr3wed up"
i hv3 t0 admit..c0ld m3dicin3 is gud
Tmi...b33n bad sinc3 th3 w0rd was invent3d so0o sue mi
juss t0 g3t by ninja
ii built mii 0wn b0at n sail3d which3va waii th3 wind blew mii
i dar3 yuh t0 r3scu3 mi
buht th3n again
n0t erry1 is a risk tak3r..s0 its 0k
ill t3k 0ut th3 0ars...n fl0at mii waii t0 an 3verlasting bliss..
~~kAth~~091608

Friday, October 24, 2008

0ct.08

iiMjusTac[k]aT



0ut th3r3

Haha
its th3 d3vils adv0cate
first thing 0n th3 ag3nda sh0ot cupid n t3ll him his arr0ws is n0t p0ppin.th3 games u play m3k mi 3m0ti0nally r3tard3d f0rgiv3 mi f0r b3ing blunt.
buht thats ab0ut it batch3s. ii think ii n0w y lust is mans greatest sin...want what u kant hv3 n when u g3t it...its lik3 that nasty kandy bar...u dnt want it nem0r3..n ull suff3r n skrimmag3 f0r th3 best prize..ima stay 0n mii m0thaluvvin mind

3nvy is n0t 0f mi..n ii b3ar false witness t0 j3al0usy..hahah....
3vil g3ni0us kath is backk

D-m0thaluvvinkath

n th3n th3y fall up0n mii lik3 li0ns..ravag3 mi bar3
im r0ng f0r sp3akin 0utta 3m0ti0ns buht every1 can saii h0w th3y f33l..ima b3 inc0gnit0 n l3av3 b3hind m3m0ri3s 0f a pr0bl3m child..rud3 bad n r3ckl3ss m3b3 th3 d3vil r3sid3s in mi..0r im juss misund3rsto0d buht every1 uses that lin3..i gu3ss its w33k n0w.highly mo0dy all 0ver th3 plac3 ..m3an mug fl0w..shytz n3v3r weak...it cut mi fac3 just so,,th3 lip th3 n0s3 th3 ch33k th3 ey3s...g0n3 it th3 blink 0f th3 main priz3.
p0pp3d 0ut in 1 b0dy..sat 0n th3 j0hn by mis3lf..mad3 mi mistak3s mi d3cisi0ns mi m0v3m3nts...with mi s3lf..s0 ima hv3 t0 d0 what ii g0tta f0r mys3lf...n3ver cat3r t0 n30n3s 3m0ti0ns u n3ver b3n3fit..n shak3spear3 0nc3 said..luv all. trust f3w n hat3 nun...it w0rks 0ut just fin3..yuh kn0 ..yuh never g3t what yuh want...n3ver!.. but aim as hi as th3 h3av3ns yuh never kn0.,,n so it b3gins again..m3ntally sumthin lit3 im f0und t0 b3..buht th3y luv mi..n ii r3j3ct th3 m0ti0n f0r th3y will 0nlii thr0w mi..mi s0ft sid3 taken lightly if thats th3 cas3 ..th3 ninja sid3 will n3v3r f0rsak3 mi f0r w3v3 b33n t0g3th3r a l0ng tim3

0ut 0f th3 carcass is s0methin sw33t

understanding of lust

ii understand why lust is bad
u want what u cant have
u bend and break
n in the end u end up sad

ii sin f0r you. dont you understand..
i want you as my own
but i guess im speaking dutch or something you dont understand
because you tend to walk away
when mi emotions are at hand.
i told you how i felt.
you must have not taken mi seriously
because i lusted for you
of you
wet mi cheeks with tears of sadness n overbuilt happiness
you must not know who i am
i tend not to care
not to put my self out there
but i saw something different
and ii stepped out onto the ledge
n now i wish i brought a life line
because im out here
attempting to climb back up to safety but i hopped to far


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venting pt 2

mm....
sitting back in my chair
reclining reminding
myself that out 0f th3 carcass is sumthin sw33t
s0 i serand3 th3 br0k3n strands with th3 crazy glue
so theyll never c0me apart again
hahah i acc0mplish 1 0r th3 0ther
or ii go back to being lazy n diving into cl0uds 0f sweetness
n mii eyes burn c0nsist3ntly reminding mii
im not dun yet.
i gr0wl with distr3ss..
em0ti0nally retarded
physically vex
so mii mind begins to flex n str3tch
b0ne breaking so i am ready to begin
i luv it wh3n ii dnt care
flick th3 vis0r n bang with r0ck..m0vad0 n ii
hahah
d-kath is s0o live!

Monday, October 20, 2008

smh day in th3 lif3 0f a baysid3r

last week we were t0ld by the officials "dont bring your electronics to school". as bayside students...pshh...we were not with it
MONDAY M0RNING!!!
I quote, it was like JFK,no lie.
the amount 0f security guards was ridiculous.
mann.....i tell you..only in the safest school you could find.

Sunday, October 19, 2008

ventingg

t0 nic3 f0r mii 0wn good you kn0w.
s0 3ffin chill I'm fr0z3n h3art n syst3m.
...all yah r0und mE is fo0d..
I'm starving 3at you all f0r br3akfast lunch n dinn3r
.n if I'm crazy.mi lat3 nit3 snack
you can't f3ast 0n mi because I'm gr33dy.
you can't ravag3 0n sumthing 3mpty..
n wh3n I'm full you still can't.
Because I'ma cum afta u lik3 th3 p0lic3 ..
i hat3 b3ing nic3..n b3ing 3m0ti0nal .
Because ima b3 lik3 all yahhh - w3ak n fo0d...
ima h0ld it in..lik3 a dam n wh3n th3 tim3 is rit3
is damag3 you

a mix of everything

This year of 2008, has brought forth some of the most historic events. Barack Obama has gone where no man of color has gone before...but the ignorance of the country is seen so much bigger than before. if we base this upcoming election on skin color...we'll all be sitting between a rock and a hard place. we are coming to ruins n sadly to say we arent making "change". the economy is =[ .....l0l no words..seriously it scares me because its just pure "what if's" running thru my head as i wonder..smh what is this world coming to.

well....as far as im concerned..its no place good so we should sit back relax and make lem0nade with our lemons because best believe thats all we have.


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