So many regrets & shoulda woulda couldas appear. but so many have already been forgotten

Its almost the close of the year. As it winds down i look back at 2010 that passed and think damn. its been wild

i yearn for ya kisses and
the touch you impose upon me.
i seek the hugs and that look you give me.
the heat we create when we lay head to chest
legs entertwined is the new solar energy
just tryna save the planet
days apart feeling like eternity
so i yearn for your return to me.
I hope my life givers accept you flaws and all
because the smile that grows from lips to my cheeks
defeats them all.
i can't see far to eternity but these weeks feel
like months but i would like to make it to the next one
without feeling rejected or forgotten about.
Stay strong hold fast lets create new rain
and leave no residue.
extend those caresses deep inside me remold the pieces
that are scarred and the things that can never be reproduced
i saw a whole new light designed now we speak in twos and there
i yearn for the return of you.

Can't Wait - Lil Rick

Even tho its old! I still love it!!

woot woot gearing up for my 2nd year of college..
cuffin season underway how bout it!

to be continued

Circles & Deja'vu

Hit the back wall again
around & around
like sand in the hour glass
our lives revolved around each other.
like the fan belt in the car in the yard
rumbling
grumbling
till it stopped.
& no matter how many times the car was restarted
it always seemed the same.
was it the car or the driver..
but its deja'vu everytime
like you drove ya car in reverse.
the circles keep turning
cuz nothing adds up just rotates
one slap
left cheek
right cheek
cheeks red & sore from the liquid emotions
rolling and convulsing down ya face.
fight or flight is on automatic always ready to run from things that seem like pain
& into the car again...
circles & deja'vu

Rap Battle..Part1

Rap Battlin wit my nigga Duece. I'm just posting my verses.
Since I went first, here is part 1.

take hearts & kill dreams cuz its only fair/
idk what this love this is about but middle finger to it all/
ima be frens & enjoy the sex/
leave my cootie imprinted in ya nose/
cuz thats all ima know how to do at the end of it/
tell u to hurry up & leave while i count the minutes till life snap back/
& reality smells like the green inhale thru the nose/
& out the mouf im high offa my own bliss.


Welp, Duece tried to come at my neck & say I was a lame.
Part 2.

pahah! funny tings i see
ima lame
ii suck
never ever in my life ever again
i went thru it all & now i can give a fuck less
old enuff to run & yung enuff to cry.
but its not even worth the tissue cuz it nuh mek an issue.
meh nuh care never again..
cuz i open up & get filled with salt .
so i shutdown & refuse to share my love & affection.
cuz a big heart that keeps gettin electrocuted
is like a alchoholics liver not even beneficial..
.judge meh all yu want but a finger in the middle to it all.